Geez Cat Styles, go write a book or something.
You're pretty good at this angsty stuff you write, so it'll probably be a good book of angsty teen poetry, which will sell very well in our current angsty, immature market. Then, when you're a renowned poetess, find yourself an angsty teen adoring fan who will love you in just the way you always imagined he would.
And whatever you do, don't get together with your current crush, he's destined to be the one who got away, the one who'll fuel all your poetry for the rest of your life. Actually finding happiness would ruin your whole plan. Nothing is more lame than a content poet.