How arrogant! My existence is not contigent on his! So what if he is back or not, and whenever would that next time be? ??? What is he: God? Of course not! He's just a another man on a camera, preening and making himself a god. He has no control whatsoever on whether he will be back next time or not. God willing, he was back many many times, but that was just plain mercy on God's part. It was arrogant to presume he would be back, or that somehow, my being me, was tied (as it is by proximity of phrasing) to his willingness or unwillingness to be back next time. Geeesh ... now I know why I did not like show, nor understand what people saw in it.
What I understand now, as a 67 year old, is that people love to be fooled, and love great delusions that we can be in control of it.